When an old video of Billie Eilish had resurfaced of her saying a racial slur she faced a lot of backlash from many people. Now the singer is discussing her controversial past with Vogue Australia. In her interview with the publication, Eilish opened up about how difficult it is to escape her past, especially considering that she is a different person now. According to the singer, “It’s really weird how the world can see every aspect of your life and reminisce about [it], The internet brings up things from everybody’s past and I’m like: ‘Don’t you guys understand that everybody is incredibly embarrassed and ashamed about their past? Like, do you not think about the fact that maybe you’re embarrassed of your past, so maybe everybody else is embarrassed, too?”
During her interview, she also discussed how she does not agree with anything that she has said in the past now. Eilish also admitted that she constantly thinks about interviews that she’s done as a teen, due to them still being available for viewing on the internet. One interview that makes her cringe is an interview where she was asked, “what are you doing when you’re not making music?”. She replied to that question by repeating something that she had heard Lil Wayne saying in an interview. She acknowledged that her response to that question wasn’t true at all. “When you’re a f–king teenager, you don’t really know yourself, so you’re trying to figure yourself out,” she noted. “That was the hardest thing for me: I didn’t actually know how I really felt. So I just came up with this facade that I stuck to,” she said.